Sunday, October 19, 2008
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Hmm...been past a few months...i've been nt update my blog...i just dont know why maybe i dont feel like it...i been through many obstacle in my life and there's is still something's new for me to learn from...i'm seriously just need to change the way i think,i look,my attitude...
I just can't be the one same person like my past...i've grown up and be a matured guy who can think what is right and what is wrong and i'm going to fight for my rights....and nw i'm going to show to the public/ppl what i'm and what i can do coz deep in my heart i know tat there's a leadership in me since i was in secondary sch...but back than i've nv show it to ppl...since i enter Ite life...i've totally change to a new person...and i'm going to show to my love ones tat i can succed and success in my life... =)Before sch end for the sch holdays 3 wks ago i've been selected to attend a eventmanagement course in ite ang mo kio...start from there i learn to be some1 new...i learn many stuff in there...i love the person who teach me to be some 1 new....i've learn to intereact wth ppls from other sch...to be truth to my self...i just like this girl since i set my eyes on her during the course...but since my fren like her so much i just cant bear to fight for the same girl and i know tat myself just cant get her coz she is very beautiful and different from the other's girl tat i've met in my life before...than i just forget abt it...but dont know why 1 day maybe it's just fated or what tat i saw her again in mrt wth her fren...and i told my fren abt it and if nt for alif i will nt be going to mix ard wth them...so from there it's start tat i really like her more than just a friends and we keep contacting...but i know tat she's belong to someone else at tat time so i just keep it to mine self until she finds out on her own tat i like her and she told me tat we can only be friend.At first i just could'nt take it to my heart but slowly i learn and tell myself tat i could nt get her and dont ever dream of getting her,but my heart says tat pls dont give up on her.i really cant do anything if the person would nt accecpt me(as if i'm clapping wth 1 of my hand would it have any sounds?) and so we become bestfren...until nw.=) and i'm still learning...no matter what happen i just want to let u know...i will always be there to support u from the back so tat u wont fall down...i will be very happy to c tat ur happy and i will be feel sad if ur sad...so be strong and believe in ur self for the answer next time...and dont say tat u dont know...when u nv try k...I think nw maybe i know why my parent says tat nw it nt the rite time to be in any relationship first,so nw i'm going to close my heart for anygirls until she's(the right girl) have the key to open my heart back.i'm just looking forward to be just friend wth any one for nw...=)Last wk sch start...i've been busy wth sch stuff and student counsil stuff...monday end class at 4 plus...tues have meeting abt worldskills stuff...and than i and Alif Razak send Aida to ite clementi for her student counsil meeting over there from there i know my Deputy president well enough...and so i trust her to be my role model for student counsil....=) wed,meeting again after sch to make a changes in some names for the worldskills stuff...and than after tat i and mustapah went down to city hall to meet my bestfren...thurs,is the worldskills start and everything goes well as we plan...yea =) Friday,also worldskills i involve myself to be in two days to help out in the worldskills...so friday everythings also goes as we plan only tat some of them r fighting over tml plan...tat all...and sat,investiture was at 10.am until 1p.m at ite bukit batok campus i've been so nervous coz tat time i have to represent balestier to lead the pledge...i'm so going through all this thing...coz i wana be someone different...=) i want to be president for ite balestier and if nt i want to be in any excos...but it's quite difficult to get to be in exco's coz there's many potential leaders ard also.i just pray hard to Allah to get what i want...=) i just leave what ever it is to happen in his hand...i accecpt what Allah gives to me...=) ok nw i'm going to jln rayer and before i forget...i just wana wish u all selamat hari rayer may u be happy wth the one tat u loves and forgive and forget them in what their mistake have been made to u...and if allah can forgive his ppl why nt us as a human and humble ppl cant forgive and forget what is is been done to...so ppl out there...stay happy ways...but for me i know tat i've been tired of my life and sometimes i feels like killing my self but deep in my heart says i have to go on wth my life...=) i'm just a ugly star and simple stars...but soon will be a shooting stars...haha...=)