Saturday, October 25, 2008
Saturday, October 25, 2008
I'm still thinking what is my purpose to be born in this world....sometimes it's seems to be cruel...but u have to learn from it and try nt to do it or what...was my name is the purpose tat i maybe do?maybe yes...but from young...mostly the ppl and frens tat is ard me are nt being fair to me...i start to learn to be patient when i was in primary 3 which is 9 years old...try to imagine...i been through all these painful stuff since i was 9yrs old...i've been the ones who always been accuse even though i was nt at fault...it's seems tat everything is at my fault...i start to realise everything since this 09/oct where i become 17 this yr...i realise all this while mostly ppl ard me want's my money but nt friendships same as relationships...can money bring u happiest?if u cheat on someone will it be fair for them?i notice everything but i just go through it coz deep in my hearts says tat everythings can be change if u really want it to happen or nt...for ur info rock is a non-living things can change it shape at times so why cant we human change ours to be better than last time...
My life has always been horrible and sadness...nv be happy until i met this girl 10 months ago..meet by bestfren,fren...so we started to be frens and go on into relationship until last two months ago...we break up and nt becoz of fighting or quarrrel but the parent of her go against our relationship...so i have to break wth her...but she dont want it...until i have to use other method to let her hate me when i say tat i'm nt the guy tat she want,i'm nt in a serious relationship and just want to play wth ur heart and i even have to scold her...but i know i was wrong to do this to her...and still she knows tat i'm nt tat type of guy...so she still love me and i really at no choice and i delete all her contact and if she called me i nv answer...i dont wish her to be scolded by her parents coz i already talk to them and i respect their decitions...i want u to be happy wth ur life and fine some other better guy than me...like u said to me long time ago where u ask me to find other girl so tat i wont miss u but i just cant...and if i do found someone...i know tat i would nt get her...i still miss the happyiest of my life where i always saw smiling and always be wth me...so dina when u read this msg i hope u understand what i mean...is tat i nv love u but i have to do this to u coz i respect ur parents and i promise them nt to disturb u any more....so my happynest was just for awhile...
in my whole life tat is my only happiest and it's being taken away from me just like tat....and to some ppl...i'm i just a robot to u...when ur in need than u will make me move or ask some help from me...to do this work for u?i'm i a robot to u wth no feeling at all?if u really want tat i can be but if some of the component of the machine break down u will nv c me again...so use me properly k...all this while i try to make ppl happy but i ask my self i'm i happy wth my own life?
i'm i always wrong?i know i have fail many times but i learn something from it and it wont happen the second times...i just dont know when do ppl will change to be a better person...btw ppl out there listen to me every single one of u are valuble to ppl coz even though tat ur being down always but there is a value in ur self...so dont ever give up k...coz u will nv know what will going to happen to u next...i believe tat when we was being born in thios world god have written everything tat we do,face our problem,all are being written down...it's for us to accecpt it ot nt...so nw i'm just going to accecpt any fade tat happen to me...and ppl put there when ur looking for ur gf/bf pls dont judge them by their cover...ppl will change i fall in love wth this girl and nt becoz of she is gd looking or what is tat she is just pretty in the heart...and nw i just feel tat she have change...or maybe i'm changing my self...if i was born in this world to always help ppl than i'm sincere to help them and without hopeing anything back from them...and dina pls...i hope u understand k....